Goodbye 2021

December 29, 2021

Back in April I was walking back to my friend Steph's home and we were talking about how, like many, I felt like I've lost a year of my life due to the pandemic. I told her I was turning 25 again. Steph looked at me and said, "What if, instead, you make this year the best year yet." As I reflect on this year that moment with Steph sticks out.

2021 has been one of the best and worst years of my life, and I am still trying to figure out how that can be. I lost and found myself this year. Visited New York twice. Cried my eyes out. Started a new job that I love. Strengthened a relationship with a friend I hadn't seen since 2013. Found refuge in a darling yoga studio. Cut gluten. Sought help from medical professionals. Opened my heart up. Moved. Saw different parts of Kansas City and colors that I'd never seen before. Set boundaries. Ended relationships that I had outgrown. Dyed my hair and re-surrendered to the spontaneity of life.

I'm not going to lie a lot of the time I feel scared, but then I think about how much I've overcome in the past couple years and I feel an immense amount of gratitude for the growth that has occurred. I don't know if it would've occurred if we weren't in this pandemic which is frightening. I know that whenever we come out of this, if we ever do, I've done some of the work to be the best version of Chanel I can be. I'm most proud of that, and that I opened myself up to so many new experiences this year.

 2022, I don't know what you bring. Somedays I fear you. Somedays I know beautiful things are on the way. I choose to believe.

Wearing: Dress - BLDWN (sold out, but similar), pants - J. Crew, shoes - Altuzarra for Target (long gone, but similar)

Photos by Malaina



  1. Love these photos and that dress on you! I'm sorry there were so many bad moments in this year for you and I hope next year is better! We had a rough 2021 so I'm hoping things improve next year, but who knows! We can only do our best with what we have!

    Hope that you had a lovely Christmas last week :) We enjoyed spending a lot of time with family :)

    Away From The Blue

  2. I agree this year had some good and bad parts. 2022 is going to be our year!

    Curated by Jennifer

  3. Call us when you feel scared. We'll teach you how to be fearless!

    D and M

  4. Living your best life in 2022 is still ahead for you...seize each day with passion!


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